2018 was not the most exciting year of my life. My dating life was not exciting, I worked at the same job I’ve had for years, and I went to school. That about sums it up. It doesn’t seem like I did that much. But over the course of this year, I learned a lot that will prepare me for 2019…which will undoubtedly be one of the most challenging and exhilarating years to come.
My social life came to a screeching halt, and I definitely suffered from post-travel depression for parts of the year as a result of feeling both stuck and overwhelmed. It’s difficult to be so close to moving on, yet so far from it at the same time. I never thought that I would have post-travel blues, but when you experience so much all at once and then come back to your life and sink back into the same spot you were in is daunting and exhausting. I experienced more and didn’t want that to stop, but I knew that I had things to accomplish before I could go back out into the world.
My dating and love life was basically non-existent, but that was a learning experience in itself. I dated minimally and less than I have in the last few years, and I have finally stopped looking for love and thinking that I need it to be happy. I’m nearly 24 years old; I have my entire life ahead of me, and this was my greatest revelation of 2018. I don’t need anyone else to complete me nor do I want that at all. I’ve enjoyed focusing on myself. I enjoy being independent, and I’m going to continue being single and working on myself.
I accepted that my future is wide open and am LOVING IT! I recognize that I am privileged to have so many opportunities in my life, but my life has not always been like this. Things have changed so much. I never would have imagined that I would have the opportunities and abilities that I do now. If you told me what my life would be like right now when I was 17, I wouldn’t believe you because that was a difficult time in my life that I would not want to experience again if you paid me.
I launched an official website that I’m still figuring out, but I did it nonetheless. I wasn’t really expecting to do it yet, but I’m glad that I did because now I won’t have to figure all of this stuff out while I’m on the road. It’s an exciting project, and I’m happy to have something to work on and set goals for while I travel.
I booked my one-way ticket to Southeast Asia and have opened my mind up to all that there is to see in this world. I have come to terms with not booking the entire trip beforehand because that’s how I traveled last time. I am allowing myself to be spontaneous for my upcoming travels. It is both exhilarating and terrifying. I’m ready to push myself outside of my comfort zone and experience things I wouldn’t have otherwise.
I graduated university with high honors and no debt. I worked my ass off. In my final semester this fall, I was taking 15 credit hours, stuck in the library or locked in my bedroom listening to white noise, driving 8+ hours just to and from school, working part-time, student teaching 10 hours a week, all while even attempting to get close to 6 hours of sleep per night. It’s finally over. I never thought I would actually ever get here. Growing up, I was not that much of an academic. I did not care about my grades. But being an English major made me try my hardest because there is no greater sense of accomplishment than doing well in what you enjoy and love doing. It paid off and my degree has become a passport for me to teach in so many places around the world.
2018, you were a pain in my ass. You taught me a lot, but I am so happy you are over. I am welcoming 2019 with open arms because this is the year I’ve been waiting for… the year that my life officially begins.
See ya next time,